It's a New Day!

It's a new day--the WW "slogan" i guess you would call it. And thats exactly what today is for me-after much debate about whether or not to go to my ww meeting today and then whether or not to weigh in-i did both! Much to my surprise i stayed the same-didnt gain and didnt lose and im way happy with that bc i was totally expecting a 2-3lb weight gain! IT'S A NEW DAY!!! A new beginning...with all aspects of my life! I'm deteremined to focus on myself and my happiness!

One Day at a Time!!

One day at a time-is what a friend of mine told me about my relationship issues i am going thru. This statement can refer to just about anything-weight loss,trying to find a job,or dealing with a broken relationship. It seems easy enough but taking it one day at time is sometimes harder than one may think-especially when it comes to weight loss! I wish there was just a quick fix or a magic wand to make me be at a healthy weight, but i know that is just too good to be true! I know that it is going to take hard work, dedication, and motivation. Too many times i let "Life" get in the way of making my dream to be healthy a reality. I have one bad day and instead of shaking it off-one bad day turns into 2 days then a week and by tha time I'm ready to start yet again-more than likely its been at least a month! When i try to see myself how I want to be-that negativity sets in and tells me "There is no way you're going to lose all that weight! You are going to be fat forever!!" How's that for internal dialogue! Way to encourage yourself-right?!! I know in order to make life changes i have to change my internal dialogue! One day at a time......

The End of a Relationship....

Well...this has been one hell of a week! I ended my almost 3 yr relationship with my boyfriend-so needless to say i havent exactly been on plan this week! Im hoping once i truly come to terms with it all that i can really start focusing on myself! So i will most likely go to my ww meeting 2moro-i sure wont b weighing in tho! That is all.....

~Words of Wisdom from my Pastor~

Today at church my pastor~Rev.Summers~was talking to us about being highly favored and how for him it's the smallest things that really stand out to him--and he was giving us an example of going out to eat and the owner(or chef) was pretty much doing it up for him~he said that he had done well with eating because he is trying to watch his figure(lol) but he still wanted something sweet but was trying to refrain--but they guy was like u know u want some cake! I know I'm dragging on and on but in the end the man brought the cake out-Rev ate a bite and took the rest home to his family...and at the closing of this story he said "It's my decision to live above my appetite." and told us to make the decision to live about your appetite!!! I know at times i def let my appetite take control of my life. I know I have to start putting myself first-bc i am worth the effort i am trying to put into making my life better and healthier!

Willpower!

As I sit @ work drinking a sprite while  writing all I've eaten today in my new 3 month tracker...I came across this tip "Only you have the power to take charge of what goes into your body.Have the willpower to say no." I def should have had the willpower earlier to resist the urge to buy 3 cookies from subway and from eating said cookies! I should've had the willpower to not put my money into the vending machine @ work not once or twice but 3 times!! Willpower most of tha time is a foreign concept to me! Willpower will be my undoing during this journey if I let it!! I can not let willpower decide how my journey will go!

Weigh in day

Today's weigh in went ok-i was down a lb! Kinda hard to get too excited about one lil ol pound,but considering tha circumstances I'll take it! While @ my WW meeting I bought one of those 3 month tracker books-i thk having something like that will help me actually write down what I'm eating. Also there was this lady there that had lost over 100 lbs...so if that's not some motivation or encouragement Idk what is! Not to mention tha ladies in the fb WW group I'm a part of have been doin an awesome job!!! So with success all around me I def don't wanna b left behind!!

Being Prepared

So i know for me the key to my success is going to be being prepared! I went  to the grocery store bought all the foods i needed for the recipes i was going to be preparing for the week--big accomplishment for me! Not only that but i have decided that i am going to start prepping some of the foods tonight so that there will be no excuses for me not to eat healthy! I know what i will be eating for breakfast-snacks while at work-lunch while at work-the only thing that will be my biggest problem area will be after work! Once i get off of work i am def famished and usually grab the first thing that looks good to me and most of the time its not the healthiest of choices. After work eating will be what i focus on most this week! 
Its weird-im already setting myself up for disappointment at the scale on thursday! Self doubting my ability to actually do what i set forward to do.....lose weight! I already have my excuses/reasonings laid out....pcos being first on the list as always! I am so sick of letting this disease determine how my life will play out! I have given it control over everything--ok will not so much given but it has taken control over everything! OMG...it gets so depressing at times-but then i TRY to think about all my "cystas" that are doing it-especially Val-she is my biggest inspiration! So on that note i vow to give it all i can--i think about what JHud's ww leader told her-"To follow ww to the T for one week" and look at all she has accomplished! I know there are a lot of people that say "Oh she has the money for chefs-personal trainers-etc" which is true BUT if she wasnt commited to doing ww she wouldnt have succeeded!

Motivation

Today on ww's fb page it said "motivation is what gets u started.Habit is what keeps u going." Habit is where I'm trying to fight my way to!

My first ever blog post!!!

Wow! I really don't even know where to start! This is my first ever blog and i am hoping that it will give me that extra accountability i need to stay focused on this journey!
I just recently joined WW...again! On a previous time i did very well on ww lost some weight looked and felt great then it happened-what always happens-i fell off! I don't know why i always sabotage myself but i do! I'm hoping that this blog will help me keep my focus!
Thanks for taking the time to read! My next post will be better :)!