Well this past weekend has been one for the record books-def one that i know that i will not forget for the rest of my life! To start a young man was shot and killed at a lil hole in the wall club in my hometown--talk about devastating--never would i have imagined that something like would happen in this small town,but it just goes to show you that it can happen anywhere!! Although i wasnt there it still had a major impact on my life-mainly bc so many people that i love and care about were present when it happened-add to that the fact that come to find out that the coward shot the wrong person-it could have easily been someone that i care about. Talk about scary-heartbreaking-and extremely senseless-it really made me realize even more that I should never take life or anyone in my life for granted.
Add to that-the former pastor of my church-the man that I always thought would be the one to perform my wedding-passed away. His family and mine were very close while they were here and remained close for the longest time after they moved...lol his youngest son had a lil crush on me when we were younger,but at that time i was so not interested in boys-i was all about my dolls lol. Last year I found him on facebook and in October I had a chance to see him while visiting my friend in Chicago-that was the first time i had seen him since i think his brother's wedding prob like 6 yrs ago and let me tell you UM.UM.UM. after hanging with him it really made me realize what i want in a husband. Anywho--i have gotten wayyyy off topic--all that to say this was soo unexpected and added to my heartache.
So I need to really focus on changing my life-so that i can live it to the fullest and without having any regrets. I have yet to fully embrace the WW lifestyle-so im not reaping the full benefits and that is just unacceptable! I always see these transformations shows-people on twitter-or in the ww fb group that i am a part-have amazing results and for a brief time i get this wave of uhh idk-motivation i guess-maybe inspiration is a better word and then BAM as quick as it comes it leaves. I think part of the problem is that I weigh in on Thursday and then the wknd is here and i lose my mind and then i feel like i only monday-wed to get some results-the scale shows it-true there have been weeks where i may lose over a lb but most of the time its less than a lb. I lack consistency and thats what i need to focus on!
